It’s Sunday night and I’m so pooped right now that I can’t see straight. Yes, I’m still not sleeping. I’m giving in and taking some Tylenol PM tonight. I have to or I might go crazy.
I’m very sunburnt at the moment. I always burn the first time and then I just get tan. It doesn’t matter if I use 50 sunblock or what. I get dark.
In other news…um wait, there is no other news. Nothing is going on. Here’s what I did this weekend.
Friday night: I’m laughing cause this is a joke. I didn’t do anything Friday night. I watched TV and read. Drank tea. Watched some more TV. Drank tea. Took a bubble bath. Had more tea. That’s about it.
Saturday: Had to make vegetable kabobs for my dad’s father’s day barbacue (we celebrated yesterday because he was going riding on his Harley today–god forbid he miss a day of riding to spend time with his kids). So, I was at the produce market buying veggies at 8 AM when they opened. Came home and chopped the veggies. I had to make enough for 20 people (yeah, we also can’t have an intimate father’s day celebration–all of his friends and the neighborhood has to come). I finish putting the kabobs together and drink a pot of coffee because it’s the only thing keeping me moving these days.
Around 11 AM, I put my bathing suit on and went out to the pool where I sunbathed for about 15 minutes in peace before my crazy neice and nephew came over. I couldn’t think of a better way to spend the afternoon, but dear lord they are screamers. I took a few pictures of them and I would post all of them, except Blogger sucks ass.
Later that afternoon, showed up at my dad’s with veggies and then spent the rest of the time irritated because they all tried to set me up with a friend of my sister’s. I guess when I say that someone is a loser and one of the dumbest people I’ve ever met, they really hear me saying sure. Well, the guy showed up around 6 and I was later told that it was the guy who wanted to hook up with me. I told my sister that he makes me want to vomit, so she needed to discourage him. I told her to tell him anything, I really don’t care. Ended up coming home at 9, exhausted and overstimulated. I slept for about 2 hours last night before I was watching bad middle of the night TV.
Here is Morgan right before jumping in the water.
Here is Connor in his “I’m a little man” pose.
Sunday: Got up early and walked. Tried to do yoga yet again, but my body is just too damn tired. Made my famous guacamole for my mom and went over to her house to celebrate father’s day with my stepdad. I was looking forward to this, since my stepdad has been more like a dad to me than my real dad. Got there and played with my neice and nephew the whole afternoon. Morgan said the following to me and I believe that it hurt me in the best way possible, “Aunt Debbie, I don’t want to lose you.” I asked her where I would go. She said, “I don’t know, I just want to keep you forever.” I told her that I was hers forever and then she said, “I love you so much.” And then she jumped on me and gave me a huge hug. Oh dear, I was a mess. Her parents are going through a very ugly divorce and I think she’s having trouble.
My stepsiblings were there, of course, and spending time with them is a special kind of hell. Even after 20 years. My one stepsister, the one that yelled for her “mommy” in this post, is binging and purging. I heard her in the bathroom this evening after dinner. She’s looking like a skeleton and everyone has told her she needs help. She thinks we don’t know what we’re talking about and that the thinner woman are the better. She’s also not a very nice person (backstabber/liar/judgemental) who thinks she’s highly intelligent, when she’s really a dumbass. I really like my other stepsister. She IS highly intelligent and really cool. I don’t have enough time in this post to talk about my stepbrother (he is Morgan and Connor’s dad). All I’ll say is that he and I have an understanding. He’s nice to me and I ignore him. Because I will bring that fucker down. It seems like I’m the only one in the family that isn’t afraid of him. I never have been. He has (in a nutshell): cheated on his wife (one of the most beautiful, kind people on this earth), beat his wife up when she found out, mentally abused her the past year, and has been living my mom and stepdad for over a year. He’s a loser. Oh, and he’s a cop so he gets away with everything. My stepdad is absolutely embarrassed by him beyond words. It’s a shame. So, other than all that it was a nice day. Dinner was good and we were entertained by the kids.
That’s all. I have exactly nine days of work until I take a week’s vacation. I’m not going on a trip or anything. I’m playing it by ear. It will just be nice to not be at work.
Time to pop the Tylenol PM. Wish me luck.
Sounds like you had a pretty decent weekend on the whole.
Kids are great at saying stuff like that… It’s a cruel kindness that comes with that kind of honesty!
Good luck with the sleep, and I hope you have an awesome vacation!
I feel your pain with the sleeping… I’m a fucking insomniac these days.
On average I’m getting about 4 hours a night. Too tired to write, too tired to think… But not tired enough to sleep!!!
Hope the Tylenol kicked in for you and you rested a bit!
first of all, those kids are beautiful! and it’s nice they love you so much. i have a lot of nieces and nephews and have a great relationship like that with a few of them.
secondly, your family may be able to beat mine in an annoying contest, which is amazing since i thought i was the hands down world champ. congrats!!
Oh, it breaks my heart when kids have to go through pain. I know we all feel we’re so strong, & yet we break down all the time. I can’t even begin to comprehend what those beautiful little babies must be feeling inside. Give them lots of hugs & love (although I know you are).
I understand the no sleeping thing. I’m actually headed to the dr’s today to talk about options. Like, oh, a drug induced coman.
Oh, and such cute faces!!
I like Lunesta. It seems to be the best sleeping agent for me. I have had insomnia pretty much my whole life. Would wear my mom out not sleeping for more than a couple hours. I still do. I am getting better. Now that I play ball 5 nights a week, I am pretty tired and get about 6 hours of sleep. On a good night. I wear myself out. Will go and go until literally I am falling asleep where I am standing. It’s the only way I can do it.
Your niece and nephew sound precious. The only thing you can do is just be there for them, and they will remember that growing up.
Your stepsister is prolly a bitch because she is hungry. And hungry people are bitchy cause they are HUNGRY.
My step sibs and I dont get along either. I left home at 16 because I was the oldest and I couldnt live there anymore with them. I get along with 2 of them now, 10 years later, but the oldest one and I have had some screaming matches, and pretty recently. I wont take his shit, and I dont back down.
Ooooh, Lunesta? I’m about to head into the dr’s and get something. ANYTHING. So tired of this sleeplessness crap. Doesn’t make me very nice in the mornings, and I really need to be on my game w/ my son.
Sigh.
Liz: Thanks. I love those kids.
Annoyed: I actually slept for 4 hours. It was wonderful. I’m hoping for anothe 4 tonight.
Hotwire: I don’t tell a lot of stories about my family on here and I don’t know why. Let’s just say that mine is a special kind of fucked up.
yllwdaisies: Oh I give them all the sugar I’ve got.
hotdrwife: I know. I almost called the dr last week, but I’m trying to avoid getting a prescription for sleeping pills.
softball: Believe me when I say that I try my hardest to wear myself out, but it’s hard because I have a lot of energy. Family is always fun, huh?
you’ve got to be psyched for vacation. sometimes not having day-to-day responsibilities is vacation enough. kick back and relax. me-time.
The only I can say is I am lucky that I play sports. I have too much energy at night, and not enough in the mornings, if you know what I mean. Cant wake up till later in the afternoon though I have been up since 7, and when it is time to go to bed I am rarin to go. It sux. But like I said I play softball 4 nights a week and volleyball on Sundays. Saturdays during the day we try to play sand volleyball and BBQ. By Friday I am wore out, and dragging but I love playing. Do you like sports? Maybe there is a team in your area you can pick up? Or swimming. Swimming wears my ass out. Seriously. I can barely make it home after swimming. And its good for you.
Sage: I can’t wait. It’s very difficult to concentrate on working. I keep daydreaming about doing nothing.
Softball: I used to play softball, but I only like fastpitch and there are only slowpitch teams around here. I’m not so interested in that kind of stuff anymore. I’d rather walk or run to stay in shape.
Tylenol Pm is a lifesaver..and I recommend it highly! Just not to frequently!
I’m glad your weekend was so much fun – and thanks for sharing the pictures!
Sounds like a lovely weekend. Any leftovers? If so, feel free to send them up this way.
I’m thinking that we should create some kind of reality show with your family…
always smiling: Tylenol PM puts me to sleep, but it doesn’t keep me there. I’m still waking up.
Joe: Yes, I do have leftovers. Lots of guacamole which I will probably throw out. You’re right, my family would make a great reality show as long as I wasn’t in it.
Best things about Summer:
Water fun
Suntans
Summer fruit…watermelon and cherries…mmmmmm!
You forgot fireworks.
I ate a whole bag of white cherries on Saturday and they were delicious.
Ooh, yes! I LOVE fireworks!
Fireworks are the best.