Did I get your attention? Well, it’s Saturday night and I’m home trying to work on a paper for one of my classes. Yes, it’s on S&M and bondage and the societal reactions to this sexual practice. I’m focusing on the attitudes in the Victorian period up until present day. It’s an amazingly interesting subject and I love researching it, but I freakin’ hate due dates and obligations. They weigh on me. I’m almost finished the paper. It’s not due for another two weeks, but it will take me forever to edit it because I’m super anal when it comes to the editing process. That’s why I’m good at my job. I may put the excerpts of the paper on Coquettishly, but not the whole paper as it’s way too long. I wish I could say that the paper is an exciting read, but it’s purely academic. I’ll try to post the juicy parts and some of my own personal experiences with S&M and bondage. You all know that I’ve more than dabbled.
But, writing the paper has given me a good idea of what I’m going to be next year for Halloween. I’m going to be Bettie Page. In this outfit.
So, now I need to get running and in better shape so that I don’t embarrass myself in this outfit. Because I’m dead serious out this as a Halloween costume.
I gave a guy named Dave my phone number yesterday. I know that I have the Pilot, but you all know that he isn’t forever so I have to keep myself open for other dates. I’m not getting any younger and I’d like to have at least one child before it’s too late. I’m starting to get the pangs. It’s like my uterus is having a fit because I haven’t let it do what it’s supposed to do. Anyhow, I sometimes wish things were different with the Pilot but I live in the real world and I fooled myself into thinking he wanted the same things that I did last time. I’m trying very hard to take our seeing each other for what it is and not read anything more into it. So, maybe this guy Dave is normal. If not, you all know that I’ll tell you everything.
Inbred nephew has been over all day. I was in my garage earlier today and he stood there looking at me like I was dinner. I ignored him, which was hard to do because I wanted to laugh my ass off. He asked me if I had any plans for tonight. I told him it was none of his business and he called me a bitch. Nice, huh? I responded with, “Oh, you have no idea….” and went home.
I spoke with my sister today and she and her husband plan to move back here by next summer. Currently, they’re living in Lancaster, PA and this whole pregnancy thing has made them realize how far away they are to both of their families. I’m excited to have my little sister back. I miss her sometimes and I know my mother does.
The old lady next door is trying to unload her friends 3 year old cat onto me. I’m not sure if I want another cat. Stella Marie is enough. She is still a little nutty and if her reaction to the neighbors cat a few weeks ago, getting another cat at this point is not a good idea. She’d tear the shit out of it.
Ah, I have to get back to my paper. Ugh.
Fresh Air Lover 
Very intriguing subject line indeed. If you were a male tho.. creeeepy!
Yea, our eggs start to rot in our 30’s. just sayin..
“Inbred nephew”? Too funny. That’s another blog!
Ver interesting subject line…..
Your paper sounds like a very interesting read indeed …
and love the costume idea for next year
I went as that last year. I looked hot!!!!
Good luck on the paper.
i am now very excited for next halloween for some reason.
how is your sister feeling?
Isn’t it amazing how much that word used to bother me (and assuming you). And now, having had more experience, knowing there are worse words you could be called and how weak minded those people are that call you bitch, it’s nearly a badge of honor.
hautemama: Inbred nephew is something else. Sick man.
RR: Thanks. It’s been interesting to write.
duckie: You were? Where are the pictures?
hotwire: My sister is feeling good. The thing about placenta previa is that the mother feels fine, it’s just very dangerous cause the placenta could rupture. She’s bored. Very bored. But still has her sense of humor.
lily: I totally agree. Being called a bitch by someone like that is a compliment.
Best wishes with the paper.
That’d make a HOT costume. I love old movies where the women were feminine, sexy, and ACTUALLY had some meat on their bones.
So you’ve “more than dabbled”? Me too. Were you the S or the M?
HDD: Thanks. I’ll need it. I’ve been slacking off. And I can’t wait until next Halloween.
s*: Yes. I’ve been both the top and the bottom, but I’m defintely a bottom. Being a top felt very false and I couldn’t get into it. I love being dominated and it’s my natural inclination to be submissive.
The paper sounds super-interesting. Can’t wait for the exerpts.
Do you find that your inclination to be submissive sexually is the same as or different than your inclination in other relationships or other aspects of the same one?
Good luck on the paper; it’s great to be able to study & research the things we’re interested in.
I’m glad your sis is moving back. Wow, that does sound even scarier; to not feel anything, but it’s so dangerous for the placenta. Best wishes to her.
Well versed in the lifestyle. Lived in a M/s relationship for a long time. Need any help with your research, be glad to help you with some real case scenarios.
You’d be surprised to know if I was top or bottom….Hee hee.
CP.
lex: It’s the same. I’m never comfortable being in control in my intimiate relationships. I’d rather just follow along. This doesn’t mean that I compromise my sense of self or self-respect. If the line is crossed, I’m not pussover or doormat. But, it turns me on and pleases me to have the role of the sub. And every relationship has the dominant and the sub. Even if they don’t practice S/M.
yllwdaisies: It is great to do a paper on something interesting.
cp: I’d guess you were a top. Something about you and a riding crop that makes sense. I’d bend over for you.
Let Stella be an only child.
I’m definitely a sub too, though I’m quite assertive and dominant in most other aspects of my life. It’s nice to let someone else take the reins…or the leash handle.
A good dom is hard to find.
I like the idea for the paper. It is actually interesting to watch how human relations has gone through the timeline of History (yes I am addicted to the History channel). The thing on Roman Vice that aired last year pretty much said it all, our Ancestors have been there done that on anything we can think of!!!
You will have to wear that outfit because it will be original 😉
I’m a sub with men, and a total Dom with women. *chuckle*
Interesting…..i will wait for the pictures.
Somewhere in Milwaukee.
Have a great Tuesday.
Good luck with Dave, and watch out for the pangs!
katrina: Stella is definitely going to be an only child. Little girlfriend is too spoiled to share me.
s*: It is hard to find a good dom. Luckily, the Pilot knows how to handle me quite well. Another reason life sucks so hard.
history chic: Oh, I’m wearing the outfit.
mg: Hmmm, the pilot’s been away and my tushy needs a good spanking. Too bad you’re so far away. wink wink
alan j: Have a good Tuesday yourself.
conan: I’m watching out for the pangs and ignoring them for now. We’ll see how things go with Dave. He’s hasn’t called yet.
Dave, hello DAAVVE! What are you, Mr Number No-Calls? Get the finger out and rescue Deb from that flying-hedonist-commitment-phobe!!
Aw damn, don’t talk about spankings! I’m going through withdrawal. I’m dom-less. 😦
conan: Heyyyy.
s*: Ooops sorry.