Thank you all for your kind words. You all mean so damn much to me. Strange that strangers have such a powerful affect on me. Strange.
I did do something pretty cool this weekend. I helped bottle 400 bottles of wine on Saturday. Friends of the family make their own wine and they made two barrels this year. What work!!!! The wine tasted amazing. It was also nice to get out of my apartment and stop crying for a few hours.
The viewing/funeral is on Wednesday and Thursday in TN. My mom, stepdad, and I are driving there. We’re leaving obnoxiously early on Tuesday morning (like 3AM), staying Wednesday and Thursday, and then driving back on Friday. Ugh. It’s a 17 hour drive one way. But, I have to go. There’s something deep inside of me that needs to be there.
My aunt’s husband told my mom that I was her special girl. I break apart every time I think of that.
I’m sure I’ll have a good travel story. I’m taking my journal to write in.
xoxo
So glad to hear you got out and did something that made you feel a little better for a while.
It’s good you are going to the services- you do need to be there for yourself, the rituals, the closure. Safe travels to TN and back – that is definitely a long trip.
I hope while you are there you can fully grieve – share – talk – remember – laugh – cry – comfort – be comforted – feel it all. I am a big believer in going with your emotions fully. Being strong means living through it not denying it.
I’m glad your online readers have been able to provide some measure of comfort to you. It’s not so strange really, because you have offered a part of yourself to us and we appreciate your gifts. Therefore, we all wish to protect you and ease your pain.
Have a safe trip Debbie,
I hope you get some closure and remember all the good times you’ve had with your Aunt.
RR
My thoughts are with you. Drive safely. And get lots of loves from Stella and Roselyn.
No matter how long the drive, you will be glad you went. I will be thinking of you this week.
My thoughts are also with you Debbie, I’m sorry for your loss. (((HHHUUUGGGSSSS)))
Yeah, what Michelle said. I don’t think I’d be able to say it any better so I won’t even try.
Have a safe trip.
How cool, bottling wine!
I’m glad you’re going to attend your aunts services. Take care of yourself.
While your aunt services will be tough, I think you will find solace in attending– I’m glad you’re able to travel with others. Safe travels, and thoughts of peace and comfort are directed at you from afar.
I just read this and I’m sorry to hear about your Aunt, I really am. Safe travels to you and your family. You’re in my thoughts and prayers.
Godspeed.
Jeri
Oh, lots and lots of hugs to you. I have a VERY close relationship with my aunt in TX and I tranpose myself and our relationship every time I read about yours. It breaks my heart for you.
I hope you have safe travels and find some peace and comfort there.
love to you – let’s talk soon.
I’m so sorry to hear about your aunt, and I hope that the services will be beautiful and that being with loved ones will bring you some comfort.
(HUG)
Hope you’re nearly home now, safe and peaceful.