Dear Readers and Friends,
Today is the 3 year anniversary of this blog.
Today is also the end of this blog.
After spending a few weeks thinking really really hard, I’ve determined that I need a break from lots of things. And some things I just need to let go of, like this blog.
I’ve had a rough year.
Let’s see…found out my favorite and dearest aunt who was only 50 years old had stage 4 lung cancer, my sister got a staph infection on her mitral valve from using a dirty needle to shoot up heroine and ended up having open heart surgery, my other sister had a baby addicted to methadone and child protective services was called resulting in my father having custody of baby, my favorite and dearest aunt died leaving a hole in my heart, and then my neighbor and very close friend killed herself and her two cats with a gun leaving my heart a gaping empty cavern.
And I’m done.
I can’t share how I’m feeling or my life anymore. With anyone. Not right now.
I don’t feel like I know myself. I don’t recognize the woman I see in the mirror. I’m tired all of the time…all of the time.
And I’ve been hiding.
What I’m starting to understand is that I haven’t dealt with what’s happened in a way that facilitates moving on. I have been just chugging ahead, not looking behind me and that’s not healthy. Ghosts are everywhere and they love sneaking up on you. My soul is a haunted graveyard at the moment.
So, I’m dealing with my grief. I miss my aunt so much that I cry just thinking about her. And I think about her everyday. I miss my neighbor. Her absence is deafening. Her empty hollow house screams at me each time I walk in and out of my door. I’m sad.
I want to thank each and every person who has read this blog. I sincerely appreciate all of you. I wish you all the best.
I feel like I’m breaking up with you all. It sort of is like that, I guess.
I didn’t think I’d cry and yet here I am, crying my eyes out. It’s hard to say goodbye to something I loved. I felt like I was talking to her, Fresh Air Lover, when I wrote on these pages. She was a good friend.
I’ll keep this blog up for a while if you want to read any of the old stuff. But, eventually she’s going away. The end is the end.
Best wishes and lots of love,
Debbie
sad to see you go but understand the reasons…i am on facebook so maybe i’ll look you up there.
wishing you the best.
I am so sad to see you go but, I know why you have to go
My wish for you is that you find the peace that you are looking for and the good things that are out there for you.
I am sending you a huge hug and I am here if you need anything.
Much love!
you’re a beautiful girl and your words are lovely, I hope you find some peace and some happiness soon, you have stacks coming your way, you are so overdue… please stay in touch and if you ever need anywhere to stay in london, please please let me know, you’d be very welcome.
and please write that book, those books, please…
XXX
You have no idea who I am, but I’ll miss hearing about your life, how you are, and what you think and feel. Take care of you…
You owe it to yourself to face some of those ghosts, as they do tend to sneak up. Best of luck with everything, I look forward to seeing your books in print. You will be well; and know that your voice here will be missed.
You are truly going to be missed, Debbie.
I wish you weren’t closing down this blog… but, I understand the reasons why you are doing so.
And I doubt very much that anyone could possibly blame you.
But still… you are going to be missed.
Take care of you, hon. And be happy.
XOXO
(sigh) Understood but still makes me kinda cranky. Like when I was told it was no longer acceptable to keep my baby blanket near or that the tooth fairy was really my dad.
I’m sorry you’ve been having such a lousy run of things and just know that all of your readers, as much as we adore you, support you in your decision.
Best of luck with the things that come, all of which are hopefully easier than recent events.
xoxop
You’ll never know how much you have changed my life…your honesty and sensitive soul is amazing… We’ll miss you !! Take care of yourself and I’m so sorry for you losses of late..
As a person who knows a thing or two about a bad run of luck, I think it’s safe to say that we commend you for allowing us to be a part of your world, in the good times, and in the recent bad times. It has been an honor to share the ride with you, and I hope that one day soon things will turn around and you will find the joy again.
Your absence will be deeply felt by all of us who knew and loved you for your heartfelt, sincere writing, your honesty, your compassion for the plight of others, (even when you deserved compassion which life has so sparingly dealt you,) your beautiful heart, and of course your sharp wit.
Best of luck in all that you do, starting with finding the good in the days ahead.
Debbie,
Wow. Just wow. Please do what you know to be right.
But if you ever change your mind, we’ll be here.
Write me anytime.
Hugs,
Bonnie
You’ll be missed.
I agree with Bush. Very much missed. Much love, affection, and well wishes from me to you. I hope you find what you need somewhere.
I will miss reading you. Good luck to you!!
I’m sorry to see you go but you need to do whatever is right for you.
God bless you, hon, and I hope you’re able to find healing for yourself very soon.
You’ll be missed.
Best to you, Debbie. Sometimes we all need a break from life in general to sort things out. Perhaps we’ll see you back some day!
Take Care of yourself Debbie xox
Love you girl. Take care of you and call me anytime you need an ear. Or anytime you don’t need an ear and just want to chat.
Did I mention? Love you!
xoxo
Debbie, I am so sad to read that you’ve decided to end Fresh Air Lover. I understand, but I’m still sad. I will miss reading your unique insights, fresh perspective, intimate thoughts and uncanny way with words. I feel like I am losing a friend. And, like you, I have had an awful year, having lost too many people (family, friends and my beloved dog) already.
Good luck, best wishes — and please know that you will missed greatly and with fondness. You are a wonderful person — kind, witty, empathetic, funny and insightful. Take care, get well and stay well.
So sad to see you go, but more so to see you sad. We have all been able to read what sufferings you had to cope with lately. It also showed us how caring, good spirited and beautiful you are. Take care, girl. A hug from Holland. M.
I’ll miss you, too! It’s so weird how you can miss someone you’ve never met. 🙂
You’ve got my numbers and email, and I do hope you’ll stay in touch. I’d miss not hearing from you. Love you, honey!
Sorry to see you go, add me to the list of people who’ll miss you.
Give all the kitties lots and lots of hugs and kisses. That always seems to help me.
Take care.
I’m so sorry you’re going through such a rough time. The saying when it rains, it pours, always seems so damn true, ya know? I wish it weren’t that way because sometimes it seems like way too much to handle. But I believe, from what I’ve read about you, that you’re strong at heart and you will overcome this. Stay strong and know that we’re all thinking about you and wishing you peace and happiness. After all, you deserve it!
Take care!
You’ll be missed for sure! I enjoyed reading you and I wish you the best in your journey.
Namaste.
You will be missed. I wish you nothing but happiness in all that you do in the future. Keep in touch!
weekendsoff@gmail.com
I’m sorry I’m late on this, Debbie-my-love, but I can understand the need.
Be well, dear, and know that you’re in my heart.
I hate to see it end, but I’m glad you’ll do what’s healthiest for you. I considered the same thing just last week myself, but decided to keep going… but on my own terms.
Please take care of yourself, and still stop by our blogs and say hi from time to time.
Maybe all the East Coast bloggers will get to meet someday.
Take care…
It’s hard to believe that I missed your farewell and entire month ago! My home PC has been out of commission and I haven’t been able to ‘stop by’ while at work. I will very much miss reading your posts, Debbie. I hope that things turn around and that you will do all that you can to make it through the unbearable moments.
Thank you for sharing all that you have over the last three years.
Debbie, you definitely need time to work on your heart and heal. Perhaps you’ll be back, or maybe not, either way, best of luck with life and the holidays.
Debbie,
I hope that time is helping you work through the grieving process and that you have ben able to find some happiness despite the painful things you are going through.
If you ever decide to return to blogging you have an audience who’s willing to listen.
Take care of yourself and best of luck in everything.
Big hugs,
– Dirk
misssing you!! I hope you are okay and you comeback one day!!
Пора переименовать блог, присвоив название связанное с доменами 🙂 может хватит про них?
Мне кажется очень хорошо
You are missed
You are missed greatly! I hope your hiatus has given you the rest you need to rejuvenate. Healing always happens on its own schedule, hope you have found the happiness you are looking for!
Take care!
Hi Debbie,
I love the blog. Sorry you’re not updating anymore.
Could you send me your email address?
Thanks,
Brian
Hello if you ever look at the comments 🙂
You are missed.
Hope some healing has occured.
Much love & light to all here.
Michelle
Sorry to be coming so late to this blog – laughed out loud at some of your posts, I came here searching about Valentine’s Day aphrodisiacs – loved all the research you did on that! You’re talented, I hope to get access to your other blogs, if you are still blogging. All the best.